What will I be?

I have been wondering over two weeks what the hell I could do after high school. Something related to languages and different cultures, I know that for sure. But when we go to statistics of employment, unemployment, pay, amount of  applied people etc etc etc, I go into real panic. 

Because I don't want to study myself right to jobless person. That's not what I'm planning. So, have anyone any good ideas? Or even bad ideas are wanted right now. 

I know, I know. I talked so much about going to Germany and starting to study European law or business law, but guess what! I don't think that it is what really interests me. So I have to think again. I'm going tomorrow to speak with our school's study counselor, and maybe she has some ideas, but anyways. 

I'm so confused. This is probably the first time EVER when I'm doubting where to go and where I will be in just 2 years! In elementary school I always knew I was going to go to high school, and in 8th and 9th grade and even in first year of high school I thought that I will become a lawyer or judge or prosecutor. But now I'm not so sure anymore. It just feels so weird that I have no plans for the future. Sure I have many dreams, but none of those are something related to studying or job. Or they are, but those aren't about WHAT I want to study. Those are more like WHERE I want to study. 

I really hate this. Being teenager sucks, and even more thinking about the future. Do I really have to know it in just a year? Unbelievable! I'm going crazy right now...

Change in plans

So I have been thinking for a good while what I want to do after high school. And I realized that law aren't the best thing for me. Sure, I'm interested in it, but I love languages and different cultures even more. 

So I'm planning to study in Jyväskylä and Turku to get a humanistic science/Social Sciensces(have no idea which it is in English *krhm* ) bachelor degree in Jyväskylä first (with German as my main subject) and then study in Turku. And what I'm going to study in Turku? Master Social Sciences (Asian Study)

Okay, I'm not 100% sure if I can do Master of Social Sciences in Asian Studies if I have bachelor of humanistic science. But I sent an E-mail to them, and I'm hoping to get the answer soon!

I'm a bit exited because of this. I think that this is the thing I really really want to do, something that I will love to do the rest of my life. And I don't mind that I have to study so many years. I know what for I'm studying.

And yes, I still have those damn 1½ year of high school left, but maybe I have now more motivation to study because I know for sure what I want to do. And how hard it is to get into those schools. 

In the end of this stupid and purposeless chatter, I know I haven't been updating my blog for a long time (again) but I really do have I life.

Yeah, go on and laugh, but I do.

And I do NOT promise to update this more often, because (you can guess this already) school is definitely eating too much my time.