That's all I have being doing whole day.
Just remembering the life before today. And somehow found so much happy moments that I have forgot earlier. And even wanted to forget, because they mostly involve somehow in bad memories.
And I found so many bad decisions that I regret. Things that should have gone differently. Things that should have made me smile, but they didn't.
I realized how lonely I have been trough my whole life, but luckily I have now some awesome friends that I'm not letting go. No matter where we all end up later in our lives. But unfortunately there aren't so many of them. And almost half of them live in another country.
But I'm so glad having them in my life.
It's gonna be only two more years and then I'm gonna be free. Free to meet all those people who I haven't met yet, and to meet again those I have spend so many awesome moments.
But my past in this little country, in this cold and stark place where I have grown up has taught me so much.
It has taught me to stand up for me and for those I care about.
It has taught me to smile for little things in life.
It has taught me that crying doesn't make you weak, vice versa it's one source of strength.
And most of all, it has taught me how to keep going forward when there is no reason for it.
From now on I'm gonna write mostly in English. It's somehow easier for me to write.
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