Happy face and summer in Helsinki

So it's been a year already. Wow! Never thought that I would be writing this this long!

But here we are. 

This day was almost like every other day. Boring, tiring.. And then there is sun shining, +8 degrees in March and I am allowed to spend my summer really near of Helsinki and I found a really good book. And no homework for tomorrow. 

So hell yea I'm happy. There is so many reasons that I'm not gonna complain about those little things that has gone wrong today. I'm just gonna smile and finally do those things I should have done ages ago. But I'm finally doing those today. Because better now than never. Or more like "it's now or never" as it reads on my wall, too.

*Phone quality*

I was going to make a special "anniversary post" about my diary and what I have written there during this year, but it's too good day to think so depressing things. So I'm not gonna ruin my good mood. And that's why you have to read this "I'm in love with world" -post.

Because I'm just too happy to stay calm and quiet. It's impossible right now.

And about summer in Helsinki, I'm gonna be living with my godmother and godfather two first weeks of my summer holiday. It's gonna be so awesome! 

"You run from your fears, you are not living. You are alive but you don't dig in the freedom. You are not running the day, the day is running you. We all fall down in life. The question is: Who get's back up?"

Watching back in time

That's all I have being doing whole day.

Just remembering the life before today. And somehow found so much happy moments that I have forgot earlier. And even wanted to forget, because they mostly involve somehow in bad memories. 

And I found so many bad decisions that I regret. Things that should have gone differently. Things that should have made me smile, but they didn't.

I realized how lonely I have been trough my whole life, but luckily I have now some awesome friends that I'm not letting go. No matter where we all end up later in our lives. But unfortunately there aren't so many of them. And almost half of them live in another country.

But I'm so glad having them in my life.

It's gonna be only two more years and then I'm gonna be free. Free to meet all those people who I haven't met yet, and to meet again those I have spend so many awesome moments. 

But my past in this little country, in this cold and stark place where I have grown up has taught me so much.

It has taught me to stand up for me and for those I care about. 

It has taught me to smile for little things in life.

It has taught me that crying doesn't make you weak, vice versa  it's one source of strength. 

And most of all, it has taught me how to keep going forward when there is no reason for it.

From now on I'm gonna write mostly in English. It's somehow easier for me to write.

In love with life

The child Sakura runs around the playground

playing happily with other children.

Stayed there and took her time;

but ended up alone by the flow of time.

Mä oon varmaan tulossa hulluks. Tai sitten en. En tiedä.

Mä nauran ihan mitättömille jutuille, ja saatan nauraa niille sen viis päivää putkeen. 

Ja mä saatan yhtäkkiä saaha ihan hirveen hyperkohtauksen, ja lähen joko juoksuttaa koiria pihalle tai rupeen jossai keskellä mehtäaukeeta harjotella joittenkin (yleisimmin Nu'est:in sekä Taeyangin biisien) musavideoitten koreokrafioita.

Pakko kyllä sanoo että onneks ulkona alkaa olla valosaa niin mä saan purettua kaiken ylimääräsen energiani, jota näkyy jostain kummasta löytyneen.

Ja koska mä olen taas niin hyperhyvällä tuulella (sunnuntai-iltana kun pitäis olla jo nukkumassa -.-) niin kaivelin sitten kamerani muistia ja löysin tällasen kuvan jostain syksyltä. 

Pakko kyllä todeta että on ihan pikkusen kasvanut hiukset tuon kuvan ottamisesta!

Ja hyvä niin. 

Mutta ihmiset, se on 2 ja ½ kuukautta kesälomaan, joten ehkä mulla on syytäkin olla hyvällä tuulella. 

Ja ulkona on ihanan lämmin ja tiet sulat. 

Kai sitä joskus voi olla ilonen kaikista ihan turhistakin asioista.

Geuli ibnida?

!Annyeonghi jumuseyo!

(Hyvää yötä)